Delusion, repulsion, confusion,

Thoughts of rage, desperation, lonliness

A candle had burned in the night

It was warm for awhile, comforting, secure

But then all it left was a melted mass

Unformed, unwanted, not even usable

Scitars play in my mind, a familiar song

Now I search again for that light

The light that loved me for a short time,

Now a flicker that I see ghosts of

Elude and evade me

I only want to see it

The idea of snuffing it disgusts me

But somehow it always appears to me

Just out of reach, beyond my grasp

Beyond my understanding

I think I had held it too long

Now I've been burned

The blisters left screaming on my hands

Yet it dances just beyond my realm

From the corners of my eyes

I can make out its form

Maybe if I sit still long enough

If I am patient

It will return